now I can take this, everything I know

realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be

I can never change anything i've done

because it's the only thing I have left

blame myself again for what I didn't do

never even knew it was coming from me

it changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come

because I have gone too far now

nobody

changed my mind

and it leads me to a new disease

somebody

let it die

but it still becomes a new disease

is this all worth what this has done to me

watered down my senses and turned them on me

fuck morality and everything I know

if I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope

impersonate myself for what I used to be

denial is all that's left now

nobody

changed my mind

and it leads me to a new disease

somebody

let it die

but it still becomes a new disease

seething in my head

I'm suffering instead

I can't remember why

this meant so much to me

doubt

did I ever want this?

it's all I could've been, it's all I would've been

doubt

did I ever want this?

it's all i've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

seething in my head

I'm suffering instead

I can't remember why

this meant so much to me

nobody

changed my mind

and it leads me to a new disease

somebody

let it die

but it still becomes a new disease