Everytime I close my eyes

I day dream

I dreamAbout

All the shit

I felt like

I couldn′t be

Meditative

Positive thoughts

Keep my mind elevated

No time for negativity

I'm chasing greatness

Been hurt so much

Now

I don′t feel pain

Feelings

Ain't even

Feeling

But the numbness

Keep me sane

Was raped

At a you age

Didn't know myself

So much

Love in my home

But I been

Searching

Everywhere else

Like nobody care

Tryna find love

In all the

Wrong places

Ppl do me dirty

Did me wrong

I ain′t

Ever say shit

Been feeling so alone

Never felt like

I belong

Music therapeutic

Put my all

In every song

Drinking until

I can′t focus

Just so I don't crash out

Tried to leave

The past

Behind

But it always

Come back around

Gave out all my love

Shit

Left me drained

Cried so much

No need

To feel the rain

Thought I

Ain′t have nothing

To lose

But

I got everything

To gain

Niggas seen me

At my worse

And tried

To enhance the pain

Distant myself

When ppl

Try to

Tare me down

Cant tell me

My capabilities

When you

Ain't built me

From the ground

Spoke on what

You wouldn′t do

To tell me

What I couldn't

Difference is

I′m really like that

You ain't have a chance

Been jumped

Off the porch

When you was

Reaching out ya hand

Ain't no other option

I gotta get these bands

Ain′t wanna

Fuck with me

Bet

They fans

Now

I′m too

Turnt up

I can't

Turn down

Run it up like

100 meter dash now

People trying

To keep up

But I can′t

Let em pass now

Worked too hard for this

I'm on yo ass now

Felt like

I could never

Love again

Jordan was

My weakness

Lover my Bestfriend

Tried to

Hold on

To you

But we had

Stronger demons

No love lost

That ain′t no secret

AB felt stupid

Thought I'd never leave him

Dre tried

Playin me like a sucka

Difference is

I won′t never need him

Feel so cold

Heart so cold

Could ice myself out

Neck on froze

Tried to make me jealous

A smut

Can't

Make me mad

Only get

Upset

From all these paper cuts

From thumbing

Through this cash

Been up for days

I ain't get no sleep

Had to sacrifice

For this shit

But I′m

Go eat

So glad my sister

Got out them streets

Beauty and brains

Have real men weak

Be too paranoid

So I

Keep my heat

Bad dreams

Clutch on it

Like I′m

Fighting demons

In my sleep

I'm 5′3

Wit ah 45

God saved me

Like a cat

With 9 lives

Been in toxic shit

Can't cap

I seen

The signs

Tried to

Make a uturn

Took a round about

Wasted my time

Going

Round and round

I know some ppl

That′ll sell that work

Pound for pound

Try some goofy shit

Shots going

Round and round

Say you my sneaky link

Then keep it sneaky

Start that pillow talking

Won't be

No linking

Westside

But I be

Everywhere

Been

A loner

Aint never care

When I need help

Nobody

Ever there

Been blessed

So I ain′t

Trippin

Wiggled strings

To put

Myself

Into position

Never been

Into trends

I'm brand different

Fumbled

Yea I stumble

Key is to

Remain humble

Been through

So much

But I won't crumble