So sick and tired of this Bullshit, man

Even people around me are telling me

I′m wasting my time with this shit but I know differentI swear all I need is that one chance

And I'll be back on my feet again

No more me and my Sick of trying to balance the music

While I′m balancing the fuzz

I know if I get this music to Everything, everything and anyhow

I only went and fucking did it

Used to be a dream but now I fucking live it

Wasn't even writing raps

I was down and out, about to fucking quit it

Lucky for me that I fucking didn't

See Lily came along when I was at my lowest

Selling wraps of coke, not the raps I flow with

I made it and I owe it to a chat I had with her

Who knows where I′d be if that chat hadn′t occurred

Back with the bag with the bag full of herbs, innit?

Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it

My name started causing murmurs in the industry

But none of these labels would work with it until Virgin did

Put my first single out and we earned a hit

That's why we never I know it must burn a bit

Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it

The day I risked everything for

I couldn′t have given anything more all these years

They weight heavy but this is something

That nothing could have readied me for

What, you think all my problems are remedied 'cause I get an applause?

They′re not

Today I cried and I don't know why

But today I cried then I don′t know why

Today I cried and I don't know why

But today I cried and I don't know why

My single went in at three, my album went in at two

For a debut not too shabby if I have to I make do

Finally some form of reward for the things I came through

But it′s different to the perfect picture people paint you

On the way up you might be a person people take to

Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate you

All of a sudden anything you may do may make news

And I′m sick to death of explaining what is and ain't trues

Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same too

Though I know I′ve got to make the most of it there'll be no take two

And ungrateful, I would hate to seem ′cause I'm leaving my dream now

But I don′t sleep now and all these hours awake are making me senile

Snap every time I see now even people I've been 'round

My whole life are looking at me like I′m a new me now

They say I′ve changed but I just don't see how

I′ve always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round

Never knowing what it is I′m trying to seek out

But I'm even beginning to question me now

Today I cried and I don′t know why

But today I cried then I don't know why

Today I cried and I don't know why

But today I cried and I don′t know why

I know it must seem mad to you, it′s mad to me

All I've done is what I′ve had to do, been who I've had to be

But the path I′ve walked has been so gravely

It's been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity

Thankfully I had none who was a mum and a dad to me

You can choose your friends but you can′t choose your family

Temporary happiness for me has been a fallacy

He's so sad, isn't? Stick your sympathy, it means jack to me

Sick of hearing how happy I should be, I just don′t know how to be

I can no longer pretend, no more making out to be

Maybe all I need′s a slap, someone to shake it out of me

Help me to spell my irrational thoughts and think more rationally

Sick of being in the state of vanity, it's agony

Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity?

Can it be I′m really just obsessed with myself?

Obsessive compulsive, depressed, my pressures reflecting my health

Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself

Rejected therapy, no, I just won′t except any help

I pride myself on my honesty but in all honesty today I lied

I was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I'm not

Today I cried and I don′t know why

But today I cried then I don't know why

Today I cried and I don't know why

But today I cried and I don′t know why

Today I cried and I don′t know why

But today I cried then I don't know why

Today I cried and I don′t know why

But today I cried and I don't know why