I′m sick of loving

Every time it's just a misconception

I find a girlAnd she lead me into a new dimension

Thinking ′bout the future

Counting out all of our blessings

And then I find out it's all fake

And she leaves me guessing

I guess I learned my lesson

I guess we're better ended

I wish I never gave my heart out

Dummy should′ve kept it

Just like a piece of paper

She ripped my heart in half

I guess this kind of thing is something I won′t ever have

But it's fine

Soon I′ll just get used to it

To keep my mind off of love

I'll just do stupid shit

I fell asleep

Questioning is anyone for me

Laying on my back using

Music as a remedy

Listening and writing

All these sad songs

Happy for a bit

But doesn′t last long

I'm Trynna find the joy

In all this chaos

Keep on praying

For my future hope it pays off

Broke my heart

You tore it in two

You tore it in two

So why am I

Still thinking of you?

Why am I still thinking of you?

Why?

Lately it′s fuck emotions

Grab the dope and then I roll it

I've been tripping off the potent

Honestly I'm omnipotent

Used to think about r memories

I cleared em like my history

Wrote this in a grave

To set the scene

′Cause love is dead to me

Our love was one sided

I know u ain′t felt the same

I bet u relish the fact

That I fucking felt this pain

You gave me comfort

You were like my shelter from the rain

Gripping the razor blade I swear I'd never love again

I′ll keep that promise

Trust me I won't break it

I′ll rip my heart out of my chest

And chain it in the basement

Knocking bottles til I'm wasted

Clear to see I′m changing

Rather stick to blazing

Then the dreams that I've been chasing

Broke my heart

You tore it in two

So why am I

Still thinking of you?

I don't even know why

I know hearts don′t physically break

But my chest hurts

I can still smell her perfume

On my sweatshirt

They say that time can heal

Soon I′ll feel better

But all that can heal

This is if I never met her

Story never ends

If the story never starts

Take these sad feelings

Trynna turn them into art

Paintbrush light stroke

Out all of my feelings

Spitting shit typing quick

Keep writting lyr-cs

Take the wheel I can't see

But keep steering

Moving on kicking out

My past demons

And I′m not walking I'll be running

From this torture

I see the light

Do my best to move forwards

Broke my heart

You tore it in two

So why am I

Still thinking of you?