I′m trying to survive these strange days

This life can be such an adventure

The world stands before my eyes wilder than it has ever been

I forgot these old memories of youth

That were caught right under the surface

Forgot these souvenirs of you that were calling back the pain

I never felt happy somehow

But I'm trying

I′m trying the best I can

I really wanna feel happy sometimes

Really wanna know where the lights are

But it only feels so wrong

It's eating me alive

I never know how to shorten the distance

Between my heart and my head

'Cause through my eyes, the days are monochrome

I wanna feel the light of a new day

But I′m so scared of it all...

I′m scared this utter joy ain't lasting forever

It′s eating me alive

I never felt happy somehow

But I'm trying

I′m trying the best I can

I really wanna feel happy sometimes

Really wanna know where the lights are

But it only feels so wrong

It's eating me alive

I′m trying to survive my feelings

The joy is the ghost of a wanderer

Lost somewhere outside of here

Counting every hour