Man I swear I been needing to write this for way too long

Five years sooner maybe I knew back then I was in the wrong

But I don′t know how apologize so I went and wrote this songEven when I messed up I never took the easy route

Packing up my bags sleeping from couch to couch

I stay strong try putting actions behind the words coming out my mouth

To treat the woman I love with the utmost respect

For the last few years seems to be something I've neglect

But I promise todays the day this ain′t true

As there isn't anything in the world I wouldn't do for you

Even if it meant I feel all sorts of pain

Heartbreak, tears falling, world begins to rain

All around me like each drop is a memory falling

From the stupid decisions I made and all that it cost me

Was never worth the shit I did I swear to go you gotta trust me

Yeah that cheating shit ain′t nothing light the lying gets exhausting

Was a waste of my time I could′ve spent my focus treating you

Take your fine ass out on a date let's hit the zoo

After that we can go home and grab some food

Talk about life in the distant future like this what we about to do

Pay off the bills and save up for the camper van

Move out to Colorado in the mountains become a dad

Treat my family right like the one I never had

Need to learn from the mistakes that I had witnessed

Growing up, now I keep adding names to the hit list

A list of names of tragic stories and the bitches

When it should′ve only been two names I'm starting to feel this sickness

Deep down inside my core, after sleeping with that dumb ass stupid whore

Something I know I don′t wanna feel anymore

I wanna come home and show you that I can change

Like when I make a song every time I say I don't care about the fame

To keep my friends name alive the reason I joined the game

Slowly learn my best try to build the name

Rise up before the day we lay in the grave

In hopes that one day this is gonna support us

I don′t care if I ever make it to the Forbes list

As long as I have my wife and kids and dog

And that house that we waited for so long

I'm looking to the future tell you what I see

Nevermind now we said that in that song Transparency

Don't wanna "Repeat Myself′ now I made a song for that

But it′s getting real hard not to repeat myself after all of these tracks

So I guess let me open a little more

Take you guys inside the attic, see what's locked behind the door

And I acknowledge this flow sounding real familiar

The beat too an NF type beat go figure

Something for me to rap the thoughts going round

Up inside my mind this little house

Lucky enough i got that second chance

Blew off a lot in our school years only went to one dance

After covid hit you had your prom

At your friends house out in the yard

From your house we weren′t very far

Later that night snuck off look up gazing at the stars

Thinking back at the memories of the past me

And in the past I admit I tend to be

A bit of an asshole not caring about your feelings

Just about the women Im sleeping with and concealing

Keeping the secrets in hopes you'd never find out

Happened a few times, give me another chance now

Something I′ve said way too many times

But somehow you still say yes as your crying

Because you love me with all your heart

And I been too caught up in making the art

But I'm here now I know im late

And I know there′s nothing i can do to go back or change

But if I could I'd rewrite all my past mistakes

So that way your heart was never broken

I see the pieces, all the tears and

They match mine, this last time I was awoken

I know inside my soul what I need

To fix things and add to the memories

I wanna say now again that I'm sorry

Take a chance with me take my hand

I promise if you do you′ll be glad

Give you the life you always wanted and never had

Maybe even one day you can take some final classes

Call up your dad, like hey I did it i′m finally a grad

Something you didn't get the chance to do as covid came and messed up your last

Year of school, then a couple more had passed

But look at us now that we′ve made it to the other side

One hell of a journey, one bumpy ride

But we finally made it we can sit back and watch the time

And not have to worry about the older times

When I used to hide my intentions behind them petty lies

Try to hide myself, always wearing a disguise

Spotlight on me now and all my actions

Call myself out in all the rhymes