The walls around me spin

I think of the way it began

If I were to know all the thingsThat would change for that rush

I′d still do it again

All that I've wanted is all that I′ve known

The callous pursuit of stimulants to a fault

Open the vault

Why do I seek that knowing the damage?

I face the scars on my arms

I can't deny that I romanticize it

Missing the times that I've mourned

The walls around me spin

I think of the way it began

If I were to know all the things

That would change for that rush

I′d do it again

Whatever happened to all that I′ve learned?

That darkened abyss

I really shouldn't miss it at all

But here I go

Thinking about the glass shattered around me

Shame from the promise I broke

I can′t deny that I romanticize it

Missing the times that I've mourned

Shadow men stalked me all through the night

Shadow men stalked me all through the night

The walls around me spin

I think of the way it began

If I were to know all the things

That would change for that rush

I′d do it again

Pull it, push it, tight fist

Pull it, push it and enter the void

But I escaped so long ago

Don't look down

Don′t look down

The tourniquet I shouldn't miss

I shouldn't miss the warm caress

How can I?