I failed last night, again

And all my friends are going to sleep

I′m five days past my birthday partyBut I never really thought about it

I never realized how stupid it was

It didn't stop me from drinking

Or from creating a tinder account

Or from ever matching with anyone

Ooooooooh

I still get bad thoughts in the subway

I still think about you everyday

I still think I′m a toxic friend

I still want to see all of them

There is no cure

I am the disease

There is no cure

I am the disease

So now that I've blown the candles

I realize I couldn't handle

Their looks and their giggles

Pressuring me to pop a bottle

Took a look at your place

Saw you hid all the mess

To fake that it was clean

You know how messy I can be

I still think you lied to me

Comforted me with your fantasies

Telling me that one day

We′ll get away

I′m not my parents' son

I was born in an ocean

An ocean of marketing schemes

That worked on me perfectly

I′m in a car that only accelerates

But I think they removed the brakes

Try to find a home in a battlefield

Kept under a giant metal shield

Try to pay your debts and try to forget

Did they actually want us to feel depressed

Speeding

Speeding

Speeding

The train

Until my inevitable death

I'm in a car that only accelerates

But I think they removed the brakes

Maybe we could have seen colors if we weren′t all colorblind

I gotta feed my kids but when it'll collapse it won′t matter, really

Sometimes my shoulders feel so heavy, I wanna give up

Sometimes stopping the fight's... It's tempting

It took us years to get to this point

We never knew why we wanted it

People have grown up since

I′ve been stuck on my past mistakes

A few little things

Some words I shouldn′t have said

Or shouldn't have sung

And shouldn′t have erased

I'm in love with my abusers

Isolation is a deadly weapon

I′m in love with my abusers

Isolation is a deadly weapon

I woke up one day

I couldn't walk nor could I stand

My body couldn′t resist

Now I think I understand

Jerome are you still proud of me?

Jerome are you still proud of me?

Take care of Karen please...

Take care of Karen please...

There is no cure

I am the disease

There is no cure

I am the disease

There is no cure

I am the disease

There is no cure

I am the disease