Check my pulse ... with a razor

feel it beat ... on the edge of a blade

cut my throat ... to spite my spirit

fear and pain and anger fade ... i'm not afraid

once i loved my fellow man

now i'm just disgusted

nothing goes the way i plan it

no one can be trusted

first they stole my innocence

then i sold my youth

nothing here makes any sense

no one ever tells the truth

you say stop ... but i'm already done

you say stay ... but i'm already gone

you say what? ... but i'm already fucked

you say wait! ... i ... self destruct

): reality is killing me :(

smash the phone ... nobody home

lock the door ... load the pistol

finger on the trigger ... pull it !!!

suck the bullet from the barrel

you say what? ... but i'm already fucked

you say wait! ... i ... self destruct

you say stop! ... but i'm already done

you say stay! ... but i'm already gone

take my life ...please