Am I the only one thinks that love isn′t real

I keep my eyes closed and I write what I feel

I've had my heartbroken that′ll never heal

The man in the mirror is the person I try to kill

I wanna do right but I always fail

I'm fortunate for the fact that I'm not in jail

When I talk about my life

To the moment that I inspire you

I′m coming from the bottom in dire need

Of a higher view

Any burden I can handle it myself

I′m motivated by the pain that I felt

And I wish I was depressed less

You see the girl of my dreams she exists

But we just haven't met yet

I swear to God that I′m fucking going insane

All I feel is pain cause I don't ever wanna change

It′s my fault I'm the only one to blame

It′s my confidence it's smothered

It's suffocating in shame

I look around me and all I see is death

So I′m taking full advantage of every breath that is left

I wanted to give up but I′ll never tap out

Cause I lost friends to the point I lost count

I'm only here cause I chose to believe

You can call your girl a bitch

But I′m calling mine a queen

I think about you do you think about me

Sex hotter than sand down in South Beach

Biting down on my neck like it was a mouthpiece

I'm not like these other guys trust never doubt me

Mean mugging as I stand tough

If you′re coming from nuthin

But now you're something put your hands up

I′ve overdosed six times

So understand that I'm just happy and grateful to be alive

They used to tell me that I didn't stand a chance

Now it′s middle fingers up as I′m waving both hands

I just laugh now cause any change is possible

They thought they knew my game plan

But then I called an audible

I'm a miracle and so are you too

So never let em tell you what you can and can′t do

We were so close then became rivalries

Get your ass over here now and come lie to me

Come lie to me and tell me what I mean to you

And tell me anything it doesn't matter if it′s even true

Every time look I trust too easily

I'm used to the abandonment and everybody leaving me

Together one day the next day you left

Since you left I haven′t got a single mother fucking text