I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months

I know it's real

I've been doing anything i can to numb how it feels

And i know that putting all this liquor in my body

Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me

No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me

Still i wait for you

And i know

It's late and i wanna go home

But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you

I hate taking off my own clothes

Getting in my own bed

Spinning thoughts about you

It's late and i'm waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my body

I hate how it's all in my head

Smoking your cigarettes

Thinking you could still want me

I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months

I know it's true

I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah

And i know that putting all this liquor in my body

Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me

No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me

Still i wait for you

And i know

It's late and i wanna go home

But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you

I hate taking off my own clothes

Getting in my own bed

Spinning thoughts about you

It's late and i'm waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my body

I hate how it's all in my head

Smoking your cigarettes

Thinking you could still want me

It's late and I'm waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my body

I hate how it's all in my head

And i know i'm a mess

Thinking you could still want me