I knew it was a dream, true

Because when I looked down in there

It′s only a dreamI knew it was a dream

A dream

I knew it true, a dream

Because when I looked down in there

It was was only a dream, I knew

I knew it was new

It was only a dream

I knew it was true

I die

Things come true

I die

They do

I die

They do

Somewhere they do

I have this wonderful dream where I...

I die

Someone else's strife

They do

I die

I lie awake and I wait for this dream

They do

Glad I′m still not

What world?

I create when I dream, in my life when I die

Fix that tie

When I die

Fix that tie

When I die

Fix that tie

When I die

Fix that tie

See man that's why you can't go over there

That′ why nobody has and that′s why nobody ever will

One kid did and no body ever seen him again

That ain't true

Yeah it is

The real world is really unreal and

No none of that′s true

While the wildest

You're just making this up to scare me

Scare me of dreams scare me they can come true

Oh yeah

True

I didn′t see a single solitary one

It's only a dream

A dream

When I dream I′m not lonely

I'm sorry

How long does forgiveness take

I hated him to death

I go to sleep

And I wanted him to die

I just smoke

I hated him so bad

And the wildest of dreams can come true

How long will I pay for my mistakes

I die

I'm going mad

I die

How long does forgiveness take?

Forever

Dirt bikes and pizza

I die

No supervision

I die

Slingshots and lighters

I die

No masters for bastards

I die

Things take on a repeat

I die

Has that ended?

I die

Are you ended?

Take me to the

Crossroads

You crashed your car again, ripped your noze half off your head

Cut spleen, punctured liver and four broken ribs

I′m worried that he might die before I have the chance to forgive him

For the shit that he did and the shit that he didn′t

When I was a young kid in Sunday school learning about forgiveness

I wish I could forgive you now that I've found things to be happy about

But I can′t help but worry in the back of my mind That I'll turn out just like you

Kids with bright future become adults with dark secrets

I used the fear of becoming you to get me though college

So don′t die, far away, don't die yet

I just smoke

Don′t die, don't die yet, far away things take on a repeat

I just, I just smoke

Don't die, don′t die yet

I just smoke Things take on a repeat

Don′t die before I've learned forgiveness

What a thing I create when I dream I′m not lonely

Who's Your Daddy?

Chain up the beast

They gave me a job so he could never get out and so the beast sits there

Dreaming of the time when he can break the chain and get out

I ain′t gonna make it

That's where he′s been for twenty years

I ain't gonna make it out

And that's where he′ll be for the rest of his life

All they do is scream and shout

They gave me a job

Put me up

Put me on one

That′s where he'll be for the rest of her life

You′re the only father that I ever new

Who's your daddy

Who′s your daddy

As you live many years

Things take on a repeat

You're the only father that I ever knew

Ima be a better you

Who′s your daddy

You're not really dead at least not yet

Take Me

Have I become my 90's dad?

Too scared to (Fall in love) start a riot how fucking rad?

The real world is really unreal

How fucking rad

While the wildest of dreams can come a bill true stay

I mean dad

Uhh could we, I mean could you like you said teach me to play catch?

Yeah... sure

But I gotta get this done, okay?

Okay thanks

Have I become my 90′s dad?

Too scared to start a riot?

How fucking rad

The real world is really unreal

Have I become really unreal my 90′s dad?

Too scared to start a riot?

While the real world is

Have I become my 90's dad?

Have I become my 90′s dad?

Mmmm thank you

Have I become my 90's dad?

Mmmmm thank you

Have I become my 90′s dad?

Mmmmm thank you

Have I become my 90's dad?

Mmmmm thank you

Who′s your daddy

How fucking rad

Who's your daddy

How fucking rad

Who's your daddy

How fucking rad

Too scared to fall in love

Who′s your daddy

How fucking rad

Once you get on that bus you ain′t got no mama no more

You got your brothers on the team

And you got your daddy and you know who your daddy is don't you?

Fuck that

If you want to play you answer me who′s your daddy when I ask you

Who is your daddy?

Fuck that

I led her to Christ and she was fuck that gung ho

And I introduced here and she was such a bitch

Fuck that

She's beyond like this, this

You Uh huh Holier than though Christian

And who′s team is this?

Right? judgmental

Is this your team?

To the T and rude as hell

Or is this your daddy's team

Yours

I lost my pride

Alright

I pray to god

Without having to die

Get on the bus

Fix that tie son

Talking suicide

Mmhmm how fucking rad

Talking suicide

Welcome to the 21st century

Where all your kids got adhd that′s why these beats always be changing

Like where the fuck are we going

Where the fuck is my Adderall

Where the fuck is all my weed

Where the fuck did I leave my god damn wings

Your kids are your kids are in there tw... they're adults now

That's why I laugh

It′s adult to adult now, like if I sent that message to any other adult

Get me high

High

High

I won′t let you stay

I won't let you stay

I won′t let you stay

Can you teach me to throw

Ha

It's time

A lot

True

Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row

How pathetic I′ve got a brother to be a role model for

Just because our fathers a mess it doesn't mean we′ve got to follow in his footsteps

(To the t)

So breath it out it's gonna be fine we can be our own role models in time

I'm doing really good

You better ask some body

I′m doing really good

You better ask some body

I′m doing really good

You better ask some body

I'm doing really good

You better ask some body

Have I become my 90′s dad, high as fuck

I just I just smoke smoke a lot

And how do I know it's going to turn out alright?

Every night I go to sleep and I have this dream

I had a dream that you were a worthless heap

You were a sailess ship that crashed into the rocks and got blow to bits a lot

A lot

A lot

A lot a lot a lot

Fuck you tie

Okay baby I

Write

Shut the fuck up

Dull shit it doesn′t do any good what you die from

My boy was just like me

He's a rabbit

Suicidal

Grabbin on to that weight

Lucky paw

Shut the fuck up

Shaking it around

For good luck cause I′ve never had faith enough fuck that.

I've never had faith

Boy was jus like me

Never had faith

Fuck that

Fuck that

Never had faith

Grown up just like me

Fuck that

I'm trying my best

Shut the fuck up

You have a rare gem

Believe in something outside of yourself

I used it for anesthesia

And in the mean time we can just fake it

We′ll leave the existential crisis to someone else

No no no no no

Things take on a repeat

I think I′m going mad

What's up you fuck

You understand?

Fucker

Shame you

I′m having an anxiety attack

It's actually super shitty

Where′s the

I think I'm going mad

I just take the account that you′re still alive as a good sign

You better ask somebody

A 90's dad

I think I'm going mad

I swear last night I was chasing after alice in her wonderland

Wondered in the room and she was with another man shortly

After she said eat this and drink that

Next thing I knew my head was in my lap and on my head was a top hat

While I was sitting at a table with a rabbit and a rat

And the hand I was dealt with was either sanity or wealth

And all this talk of suicide think I was in bad help

Bad jokes bad lines

Constant thought of suicide, lose of pride and lose of life all under my belt

I pray to god she′s alright in and out of my life

Where′s the love?

I lost my pride in my mind

I thought losing that weight would help my dreams fly

But instead the demons creeped inside

Conversations with god asking how to rest in peace without having to die

He told me I'm the balance of the world and there′s a war coming you best pick a side And fight or else my destiny is dead to me and there's no point in wanting a high

Just go to your cubicle get married have kids then die

Well fuck that

Fuck that

Okay

Fuck that

I don′t want to do that

Fuck that

I think I'm going mad

Wait

Alcohol is not a great thing

I noticed how he brought her

Because you die from alcohol doesn′t mean you're any good

You've gotta leave some words behind

Throw your diamonds up again

It′s nice to die from alcoholism it′s very glorious

Wait

But if you

Pffff I know love like a flat tire bus when I've got somewhere to go

Sorry if I can′t get to the phone right now I was probably running home

Don't lose you′re faith in me I'll keep my promises

If I said I′m gonna be there, I'm gonna be there

I said gonna be there

Wait for me

I'm coming home

Keep the candles lit

Don′t you dare eat alone

Today′s our day

We're gonna celebrate

Just because I′m running a little bit late

Doesn't mean I love you less

I′m trying my best, To do what I can for this family

You know my car died, and I'm low on money

This addiction running it′s toll on me

I wish I could quit, but it's not that easy

I've tasted failure, I′ve slept at it′s door

It keeps happening over and over again

I keep burning my lists of excuses, but somehow I keep finding more

I want to change for me, for you, for the kids,

I'll take all the blame, if you just keep my last name

We can make it through this, I promise

I promise I′m gonna change, if you just

Wait

Fuck it up, Weight

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Weight

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Weight

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

Wait

Fuck it up

No don't go don′t

You've let me down before

You′ve let me down before

I gave you chance after chance to prove yourself

You're leaving me no choice, but to raise these three kids all by myself

I will not wait for you

A gift

To come home

I threw the candles out

Left your food on the stove

I had a dream that

You know When I put this ring on

This wasn't what I signed up for

Do you remember you vows?

You promised so much more

You promised so much more

Wait here

New city can you treat me right

New city can you rough me up

New city can you fuck me up

I should be dead

I should be dead

I should be dead

I should be dead

Dirt bikes and pizza

No supervision

Slingshots and lighters

No masters for bastards

This one is crying I don′t know what to do

This one is yelling I don′t know what to do

This one's running off I don′t know what to do

They don't teach you how to deal with this shit in school

I should be dead, I should be dead

Trying to find the reason

Maybe they′re the reason why I'm here instead

I should be

I should be dead

Dirt bikes and pizza

No supervision

Slingshots and lighters

No masters for bastards

I gave my kids the ebt card

I don′t know what I'm gonna eat this week

At least they can go get themselves some

Rootbeer and jelly beans

They don't seem to think that I love them

Or respect a thing I say

But I′m trying real hard now

How long does forgiveness take

How long will I pay for my mistakes

How long does forgiveness take

How long will I pay for my mistakes

Dirt bikes and pizza

No supervision

Slingshots and lighters

No masters for bastards

How long will I pay for my mistakes

How long will I pay for my mistakes

How long will I pay for my mistakes

How long will I pay for my mistakes

Oh no I′ve got to get out of here

At bars for drinks I'm so alone

Lone

Hey hey hey hey we can make it

Now he′s not even a professional drunk

Hey we can make it

I was unable to get you a present because I am at city team ministries

I just wanted to say that I am very proud of you

I heard that you were accepted to Berkeley

I would like to help you if I can some how?

I miss you and your brothers a lot

I know that I haven't been a perfect dad but I will always love all three of you boys and Bethany too

I can′t change the past but I can change the future with the help of god!

I came to city team ministries as a last chance

My sponsor and mentor, a friend of 35 years

Rich Suchlove from venture church asked me if I wanted a new way of life?

I then said yes and I committed myself to a year at city team

I feed the homeless 50-100 people a day breakfast and dinner.

I attend D.B.S. classes daily bible study classes about 3 hours a day

Go find the light

I also attend S.A.I.T. classes as well as parenting classes

Preaching that old shit

Preaching that old shit

You ain't on my clock

And I just finished 2 years of anger management classes before I came here.

I want to change my life for god and for good

I don′t know what to say except if you or your brothers or friends want to come visit

We have movies in our small chapel here put on by Saratoga presbytyrian church every Friday night at 6:00 Pm

Free movies and popcorn, movies like titan etc

Please come visit

Miss you

These ain't tears that's the Visine dripping

You have to forgive the past so that you can actually function

Who you are is yours and I am mine

But we still fuck sometimes

We meet at bars for drinks

I′m so alone hell I′d give anything

For open ears or honest tongues that can whisper me to sleep

When all the blankets on you side and I'm afraid she′ll leave

Picking blackbe

Nothing like slamming your face through the windshield

I don't think I′m riding my bike again

It's 5 years later still pulling glass out of my head

Well I should be dead

I should be dead

Black out the last 7 night

Need dad is to borrow the car keys

What he really needed now was to be alone

Because every night I go to sleep

Every night I go to sleep and I have this dream

Someday I′m gonna be like you dad

Because every night I go to sleep

I'm gonna be like you

I have this dream where I win

Where I win every battle I fight and I kill every dragon in sight

I got a job, they gave me a job

I got a job, they gave me a job

Any minute now we're going to be dining like kings

I just smoke

I just smoke

I just smoke

Moved away

I just smoke

I just smoke

High as fuck

When are you coming home son I don′t know when

But we′ll get together then, I just smoke dad

You'll know we′ll have a good time then

My parents are getting divorce

Two Christmases

You promised them didn't you

Why′d you go and do that how many times have

I told you

If you're not going to be there

Don′t say you're going to be there

You know how I knew you promised him?

Because he kept looking at me up into the stands and like after about I don't know the 40th time I realized

I′m proud of you

He expected you to be there

I don′t care if you flake out on me

Well I care but you know I chose it, I married you

I'll deal with it

He didn′t choose this

Do you love who you sleep with?

Every night I go to sleep

Spend your whole life, being with them?

Every night I go to sleep

And I have this dream

It's never too late to break up

What a man

Because ever night

That the real

Ditch the old love, Find a new one

Hopefully the kids forgive you

Love the new you

And double Christmas

And I dream

And I dream

I got a job they gave me a job

It′s Christmas

They gave me a job

I just smoke

Merry Christmas dad

Merry Christmas to you bud

You know what?

I think this is the best Christmas I've ever had

Friday night at your fathers house

Eating Take out pizza′s

Watching movie after movie

On timeout with the TV

What's going in the back room?

Why's the door shut and the music turned up?

You know that night you came back?

I wished it

I wished that you would be here for chistmas

Thanks for giving me a second chance to be your dad

Now there′s something I have to tell you

It′s time for me to go

What?

No

Mom picks me up at the grocery store

Cried, don't make me go back there anymore

You bought me candy for the drive home

I didn′t eat it, stared out the window

Put on my headphones to block the world out

Watch the trees pass under grey clouds

Well Was it worth it?

Because Double Christmas

Means Double Halloween

My world's a nightmare

No, sing me the other one

My song

Every time you say good bye

I die a little

Mmhmm take off your boots

Every time

You say goodbye

Oh man if I had one hit song

You will

I′d make you guys really proud of you

We're already really proud of you

I′d get you some diamonds

Hmm, nauh. All I need is you

In my, real world is, only a dream

I love you cat

I love you too

Jour body moved slow and your brain did too

Your mind was wrecked by drugs

I'm glad I don't have to love you

You′re someone else′s burden now and

You're someone else′s strife

I'm glad I can still sleep

Knowing that you′re not in my life

In my life

Have you ever thought about death

No in fact I almost feel good at the approach of death

A pity it's only a dream

In college

So Breathe

This mother fucker my dad, he fucking didn′t know what love was

He learned to walk

You promised him

It ain't like I'm still 5 years old you know

It ain′t like I′m going to be sitting up every night asking my mom

When's daddy coming home

Yeah he wasn′t there to teach me how to shoot my first basket but I learned didn't I?

I got pretty damn good didn′t I?, got through my first day without him, right?

I learned how to drive I learned how to shave

I learned how to fight without him

I had 14 great birthdays without him

He never even sent me a damn card

To hell with him

Breathe It

I didn't need him then

Out

And I don′t need him now

I'm going to get through college without him

I'm gonna get a great job without him

It′s gonna be fine without him

I′m going to have me a whole bunch of kids

Ima be a better father than he ever was and I sure as hell don't need him for that because there ain′t a Damn thing He could ever teach me about how to love my kids

So let me love you

Black out the last 7 nights (From far away)in a row

It's gonna be fine

Let me love you (How come he don′t want me)

From far away

I can be your secret

It's gonna be fine

Let me love you from far away

High just smoke, I just smoke

What a world I create

I just smoke, I just smoke, I just smoke

High as fuck

Dude let′s play some freakin video games

High as fuck

I don't have shit to do

A pity it's only a dream

No roles models

Such a fabulous dream that I

Blacked out the last 7 Nights

Bills to pay

Have I become my 90′s Dad?

Too scared to start a riot?

How fucking rad.

Mmhmm, how fucking rad

How fucking rad

Who′s your daddy?

Who's your daddy?

There′s no need to fear

Who's your daddy?

Underdog is here

Who′s your daddy?

Have I become (Really unreal?) my 90's dad?

Too scared to start a riot how fucking rad

Mmhmm how fucking rad

Mmhmm how fucking rad

And it′s like

I just smoke

High as fuck

Dude let's play

I just smoke

I had a dream

That you were a worthless heap

You were a Sailless ship

That crashed into the rocks and got blown to bits

But still you weren't quite dead

Claimed a halo hanging around your head

The rest of us saw horns instead

You looked terrible

And I smiled a bit

The joy you had inside was gone

And no one gave a shit

Go find the light

Go find the light

Go find the light

Go find the light

Go find the light

And no one gave a shit

Not even the kids

He was already dead you see

Your body moved slow

And you′re brain did too

Mind wrecked by drugs

Go Find The Light

Go To Heaven

There′s No Life

There's No Sunlight

Preaching out old Shit

Preaching out old shit

Go find the light

Preaching out old Shit

Preaching that old shit

(You ain′t on my schedule)

Know you ain't on my clock

I sleep till whenever

Yeah I wake up when I want

When I want When I want

I′m waking up on an airplane

High as fuck

Plane to catch

Roll Roll Roll Roll Roll Roll

Plain Plane, Playing Plane

I haven't done this since I was a kid

Rolling over like you want to replay last night

I get up and pack a bowl

I tell you to go find the light

I haven′t done this since I was a kid

Go find the light

Light, It ain't here

Go find the light

High for a summer

Ain't done shit

Shit shit shit shit

Planes to catch

High for a summer

Ain′t done shit

High For A Summer

Feeling dumb and dumber

No role

Ain′t done shit

These ain't Tears that′s the visine Dripping

Dripping Dumb and Dumber Dripping Dripping

Smoked too much now my eyes are Itching

You Still are a kid

Find the light, You Still you still are a kid

So now I don't talk I just smokes a lot

I don′t have thoughts

I just smoke I just smoke I just smoke

I don't think you should talk

Make a living (Every night) trying to sell my hurt Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row

So take me to the crossroad or take me to church

7 nights, 7

7 nights 7

7 nights 7

7 nights, 7

7 nights, 7

77 nights,

In a row 7 nights

Believe that it′s not your fault

I Just Smoke

This, this, this was the start of his new life

It's the same thing over and over again

And he didn't know how much it hurt to be alone

The same substance, the same action, the same reaction

A child arrived

Next thing I knew, my head was in my lap

Next thing, next thing I knew my head was in my lap

Next thing I knew

Next thing my head was in my lap

Next my head was in my

Was either sanity or wealth

And on my head was a top hat

So you get a little bit tired of life

Me I′m the balance of the world and on my head was a top hat

As death comes you almost say

Okay baby it′s time

I lost my pride in my mind

I thought thought thought thought losing that way would help my dreams fly

I lost my pride in my mind

I lost my... mind

I lost the hand I was I dealt

Was either sanity or wealth

I lost the hand I was dealt

Next thing I knew my head was in my lap

Get married have kids and die

Pick a side and fight

Get married have kids and die

Or else my destiny is dead

Get married have kids and die

And there's no point in wanting a high

Get married have kids and die

Me I′m the balance of the world

So, no I have little fear of death

In fact in almost welcome it

After Alice in the wonderland wondered in the room

And she was with another man and after she said eat this and drink that

So take me to the crossroads

I just smoke

Or take me to church

I don't want to make

Question

What are your thoughts on me visiting you?

You better, you better, you better ask somebody

Where′s the love?

You better ask somebody

So take me to the crossroads or take me to church

Where's the love, you better ask somebody

I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my hurt

Shut the fuck up!

So take me (Downtown) to the crossroads or take me to church

Shut the fuck up

Where's the love

What's up

I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my hurt

What′s up, how are you?

Give up

Better ask somebody

We're meeting at forager

I′m doing really good

I'm doing really good

You better ask somebody

I′m doing really

No role modelz and I'm here

Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row

Accidentally stumbled upon your grave

When i walked through the cemetery yesterday

Get me high

That′s why I want this to be the best Christmas ever

Better Black Sabbath

Black Sabbath in your Black Kia

Balance of the World

Better Ask Somebody

Who's your daddy?

Are you ended?

What a world I create

When I dream I'm not lonely

Things take on a repeat

A Pity it′s only a dream

You keep seeing the same thing over and over again

What a fabulous dream that I feel, that the real world is really unreal

You keep seeing the same thing over and over again

Time to give up you

Time to give up you

Time to get fucked too

Time to give up soon

What′s up you fuck what are you up to?

Fucker

I think I'm having an anxiety attack

It′s actually super shitty

Where's the love

I just take the account that

You better ask somebody

You′re still alive as a good sign

Time to get fucked

Well you're probably right

Has that ended

I think I′m going mad

Where's the love?

Where's the love?

The real world is really unreal

Where′s the love?

Where′s the love?

I lost my mind

You're probably right

I lost my pride

Demons creeped inside

Having conversations with god asking how to rest in piece without having to die

He told me I′m the balance of the world and there's a war coming

I best pick a side and fight

Black Sabbath in your black kia

Where′s the love?

Didn't know you were getting cleaner

Bought me a guitar and a mic

Because I write songs almost every night

That′s how following your dreams go

Grew my own studio

You didn't know

I was gone write a whole album just about you

Where's the love, where′s the love?

I mean I′m sorry it's gonna be rough

You better ask somebody

Where′s the love?

I have a

Awh I knew my luck had to change sometime

And how do I know it's going to turn out alright?

Because every night I go to sleep and I have this dream...

It′s so hard to be yourself

It's so hard to be yourself

When everyday feels like Hell

When everyday feels like Hell

It′s so hard to be yourself

It's so hard to be yourself

When everyday feels like hella

Everyday feels like Hell

Steve miller in your black kia

Didn't know you had a drug dealer

I mention I write songs and play guitar

You asked me for a business card

But that′s how silicon valley goes though

That′s how silicon valley goes though

If I'm gonna die broke

Hanging from a tight rope

I might as well share a couple songs I wrote

Take me to the crossroads or take me to church

I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my merch

How do I know it's all going to turn out alright?

Who′s your daddy?

Because every night I go to sleep and I have this dream

Is that ended?