Though I′m independent it depends if it's music or social skills

Cuz I don′t hold a deal but I can't hold a conversation

Unless it's with someone that I know for realStaying in but I get FOMO still

Know I need to get control of things

But this really feel like overkill

I don′t even get to pull the strings

In my own mind but the whole time

I don′t think that anybody's noticing

Funny cuz I keep it undercover when I overthink

That′s jokes on me like comedy posters

See I'm going off topic so hold my drink

I hide a lot behind all that I want

Ain′t no closing my eyes it could go in a blink

Life isn't always in in sync

People never really care to wait

That′s okay because I'm here to stay

Rub it your face like Cera Ve

I remember back in 8th grade

Man the concert solo was a scary day

Never really told a soul about the music

But I guess I threw my cares away

Step into light my hand up to the mic

I bet they ready for a serenade

Dropped a verse on 'em

Watching changes on the parents face

When it′s over everybody in the lobby telling me I did good job

But I still had butterflies up in my stomach

I was feeling like a bullfrog

After that rush I was hooked on this

I don′t plan on getting pushed off if

I won't beat around the beat around the bush all day

I′m the one you ain't put on yet

I would argue that it′s fair to say

I been nice for a long time now, if you're tuning in you′re very late

Back when I was rocking white and orange Jordan's

Looking like a piece of carrot cake

Better than the shit I wear today

I don't have an ounce of drip to talk about

I can see why it would piss ′em off

Cuz even though they in Ferragamo

I′m the one who's cut out of a different cloth

Music better if it isn′t long

One size can really fit 'em all

Who is the artist you′re ripping off?

What is the feeling you're giving off?

I tend to pay too much attention to the dimensions of making song

Show the connections you′ve drawn

Make sure the chorus gets stuck in their heads on a loop

I'd rather let it all loose

I got voice for my feelings to live through

So why don't I set it to use?

I got some memories I′m blocking mentally

Also got some that be getting me through

In the worst times

When I look back and remember the moments that helped as I grew

Be my guest to stay with me here

Cuz reflection′s are always one hell of a view

Since we both got nothing better to do, look at the first time I felt

I was ready to dish out a verse for a small crowd

Look at me settling down in my mom's house

Look at my dad throwing pitches to me every day

While he holds a 9-5 job down

Look at the day that I graduated and it′s all smiles

But my parents been separated for a long while

So they only ever met at odd times

Walking in the auditorium, I saw them lock eyes

My dad told my mother "I'd say we did a pretty good job, right?"

She nods twice, I can see it in a soft light

Cuz that small moment was some thawed ice

In a long stretch full of cold shoulders

Now I mull over that one notion

That my life brought ′em both closer

So that pride showing and I thrive on it

Look at me rapping my graduation speech

Made it 'bout writer′s block, and embracing the life you got

Either way we gotta wait and see

But that patience bleeds 'cross the keyboard

That I'm making these on

Look at me falling in love and maintaining the faith

That we′ll make it be long

Look at me throwing a Drake CD on

Look at the friends who were there to lean on

Me and my sisters are playing b-ball

Early autumn while the maple trees all

Different colors on the shady green lawn

Man I swear I couldn′t wait to be on

Now I see the golden days could be gone

Yeah, it's hard question to ask

Could you accept if the highlights of your life were already past

It′s only uphill from here

So there's really no reason for getting attached

It′s all for the best if you count your blessings

Learn your lessons and never look back

Bitch Imma get in my bag

I'm way ahead of my class

I could tell I was a gifted writer so I wasn′t too present in math

I do not get why they're mad

Let all the tension subtract

I see the easy route but I've decided

I′m ditching the map for a treacherous path

Living like Kennedy′s last day

Staying driven 'til I′m done breathing

Amen if you believe it

I don't like to be the one preaching

Cuz godspeed can′t outrun demons

Never feeling like enough either

Even when I'm with my close people

Someone gotta be the odd one out

Guess that′s a problem we'll call even

Summer baby always been a winner

I was born in the wrong season

Trying to bring out my emotions

I'm coping by smoking a joint for the raw feelings

Goosebumps on your arm, really

It ain′t even bout bars now

But they′re over your heads like car ceilings

Hole in one, on the course eating

You'd be lucky if you par three′d it

Who the fuck is giving ya'll freebies?

Kinda looking like it′s all teamwork

No squads mean shit cuz they all switch clubs like golf teachers

In a quick year I can promise to you

When it's over they will not need ya

But it′s easier to fade away

Praying praying for a change of fate

Time degraded at a crazy pace

Now or never yeah it's make or break

Hate to wait for a later date

You can tell my parents Imma make a name

For that little boy they gave a safe space to

Who am I if ain't grateful

Bet they want the Teletubbies days back

When their son (sun) had a baby face

It′ll kill me when I lay the graves

So I know I gotta give the greatest thanks

Life′s a game and it's pay to play but I′ll play it straight

Anything I'm bringing to the table

Only possible because you saved a space

Let me say the grace oh yeah