Honest, look

Honest moments, some days I′m too afraid to create'Cause I′m fearful all my greatest ideas have gone to waste

I know that if I would they would probably be good

But who got time for being good when you wanna be great

But super critical, plus my heart growin' super cynical

People hang around actin' like they super into you

Meanwhile, it′s all a scheme to see what they can get from you

Prayers in these cab rides, that became a ritual, uh

I told God I wanna live for You, but

It′s hard to live righteous when it costs residual cuts

And plus, for my faith, I face ridicule, but

In light of the glory the comments all minuscule, uh

My wife feeling competition with my career

I'm feeling competition with every rapper I hear

The day I stop doing this probably my biggest fear

And she the only one to be there when nobody cared

So my priorities change, who even keeping score in this game

The price of fame quite the chore to maintain

Record exec′s always wanna pour you champagne

It all stop when the record sale reports ain't the same

Who really love ya? Who really love ya? Who really love ya?

Let me ask again, who really love ya enough to hug ya?

To tell you when you actin′ like a sucka, who really love ya?

That's not rhetorical, give a call to whoever it is

Say thank you for everything that they did

Life is fragile, we here for a blink, and then it ends

The definition of family the same for the friends

Loyalty thicker than any blood that′s under your skin, uh

Honest moments

How often do we have 'em?

Real ones

Can I have one?

We goi'g public with our highlights, yeah

Private with our sin, throwing up

Pictures at the party

But not the one throwing up at the end, oh Lord

Honest moments, how often do we have ′em?

Even with our closest hard questions, hope that they never ask ′em

Ironically, they feel the same, we both actin'

I′m feelin' like a joke, that′s why I try to keep 'em laughin′

Crisis happen in my faith, I felt trapped and

Didn't know if God was just something I imagined

Meanwhile, people got questions, they askin'

Me about Jesus, but I ain′t got the answer, uh

It′s kinda crazy when you're known for your faith

You supposed to give it but you never get grace

So show up on stage and you put on that face

I′m just tryna hold on, hope I finish my race, uh

I just wanna hear Him say "Well done"

How I feel right now? Well, done

Ain't nobody askin′ me how I'm doin′

They just like, "Ayo, where the next album?"

"Here it is", honest to God, that's all I can be

They want the old Andy, girl, don't tempt me

And as of late, I′m lookin′ into therapy

Forget scarin' other rappers, man I′m scared of me

'Cause mental health issues in my family tree

My grandmother died of Alzheimer′s

Last time I see her, yo, she ain't even remember me

I gotta wonder if the same end is meant for me, yeah

Went through depression in December 2016

The worst year I could remember

I was sittin′ down at breakfast with my wife, started weepin'

Tears fallin' down my face, I ain′t even know the reason

Started readin′, learned it's my body′s way of releasin'

Stress that I been carryin′ over the seasons, uh

In my darkest time, friends are what I needed

But I hadn't sown there so wasn′t much for me to really reap and

Losin' faith and things I once believed in

Even myself, I think Satan sent his illest demons

Must be doin' somethin′ right to get this opposition

Meanin′ I should go the hardest when I feel like quittin'

God, kill me if I ever start mixin′

Personal ambition and call it a righteous mission

'Cause from a distance, most people couldn′t tell the difference

That's the thing that make me ashamed to say I′m Christian

God, they lyin' on your name on the television, uh

They Benny Hinn gettin' Benjamin′s, uh

And yeah I get it, why most hate religion

′Cause division and oppression is what Ben depicted

Two choices young man, make a decision

Throw your hands up and say "Forget it"

Or be the difference

Four minutes of sharin' how I felt

Honest with y′all 'cause now I′m bein' honest with myself

Honest moments

How often do we have ′em?

Am I allowed to have one?

We go live with the highlights

We go silent with the pain

We don't tell nobody

'Cause we don′t want no shame

But if you want to know

If you only knew

Everyone you scared to let down

Don′t you know they're like, like you