Didn′t think that I would make it to this year

Now it's just another day full of tears

Load me in, my casket full of fearI′m dying now, just knowing you're not here

Imma take the long way home, I don't know me

Growing up I′m tired now, wish I was the old me

Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings

And I think it′s you now every time my phone rings

Pastel skies I don't give a fuck

Mind so numb feeling out of touch

My demise yeah I′m out of luck

My blue eyes now I'm not good enough

Pastel skies I don′t give a fuck

Mind so numb feeling out of touch

My demise yeah I'm out of luck

My blue eyes now I′m not good enough

No matter if I try, nobody seems to arrive

And when I'm shocked with fear, nobody wants to be near

So I sit in my room and I write it down

I sing my songs and I wipe my frown

I cry in bed but I don't know how

My tears are still and they won′t fall down

I been so alone since the day that you left me

Never paid attention to all of the things you said to me

Now there is a hole in my chest where my heart should be

I called the doctor he said there′s no recovery

Now I try to open my mind

And see what it's like to be in love again

Does she want to be in my life

Maybe I′ll lie so I won't lose another friend

Don′t she see she doesn't love me the way that I want her to

(That I want her to)

I can′t breathe I'm gritting my teeth and holding my tongue

Cause I know that imma say I love her too

I hate that I cannot keep away from you

We both know that self destruction coming tell me it ain't true

Don′t act like you don′t know which path you wanna choose

And I won't act like I wanna be with you get out my head

Imma take the long way home, I don′t know me

Growing up I'm tired now, wish I was the old me

Saw you in that avenue, tugging on my heart strings

And I thinks it′s you now every time my phone rings

Pastel skies I don't give a fuck

Mind so numb feeling out of touch

My demise yeah I′m out of luck

My blue eyes now I'm not good enough